Things Can change

I like kids. I have always liked them. On Sunday August 29th at around Four O'clock Pm. I became an uncle. My one and only sibling had her first baby on the weekend. I went over to her house on Monday night to see my niece for the first time. She is precious and tiny. I held her for an hour or two before my sister had to take her and feed her. A few things came into my mind that night. One was that little Avery Nicole Kinaschuk has the longest fingers I have ever seen on a baby. This leads me to believe that she will be a famous composer and musician. I also realized that although most of us had been hoping for a boy, this little girl will be the best female golfer ever. She will be a straight A student and get a scholarship to the finest US university around.

At that point I had to stop and think. If she goes off to university there will obviously be boys there. Actually she will face the pressures from jerk boys like her uncle from as early an age as twelve or thirteen. That gets me pretty riled up. I know I'm being a huge hypocrite but for now I have to believe it's my right. I'm not saying that I'm "gods gift to women" or some kind of "Babe Magnet", but I do what I can and have been known to love 'em and leave 'em. Up until this morning I was pretty satisfied with my life style. I've been set in my ways for a few years now. People have come and gone trying to show me that I can be much more. I should use all my potential. I have never really listened. It took only 7 lbs and a few ounces to change my mind. I'm not the type to get scared easily. I guard my emotions well. After all every man is an island. This morning, I'm scared. I might be scared for the rest of my life, because there is something out there that I believe in. Something I care more about more then myself. My niece. My Avery Nicole Kinaschuk. They say that babies are little miracles. I don't doubt that anymore. And just think, this isn't even my baby. Well now I am terrified. Did I just admit that I want to have a child someday. I have to go think about what I've just said.

Later.
James